The contradiction between nature and humans
The day I realized my life after this program would never be the same
On the 11th of April I went for a bike ride to the beautiful beach that is close to our school. I had to feel the sun on my skin, the wind through my hair and my feet on the ground.
The last days had been intense. Together with our team we came together to have our study week. The theme of this study week was history. We watched documentary’s, had courses and that morning I started to study about primitive communism. I learned about the contradiction between nature and humans. I learned that The Neanderthals had to fight against nature to be able to survive. Therefore they had to use natural resources to make for example weapons to hunt.
While I was studying this topic I became very sad. I realized that since the human race had found a way to survive in the nature, we started to damage and pollute this same nature and the universe we live in.
Now, in the year 2018, in the time that I’m living on this planet, we have to find and invent solutions to fight against all the pollution that we brought to that same planet, to be able to survive.
We cannot see the stars who used to guide us anymore because there is too much light pollution. We are starting to inject tree’s to produce apples because we came to a point where we damaged the ecosystem so much that it’s not able to do it by itself. We have to produce huge systems and machine’s to find a way to collect the trash that are floating in lakes, fields, rivers, the air and the oceans, that we produced before!!!
Because we want to look nice, because we want to have that new trendy shoes, because we want to eat whatever we can and because we want to have the fastest car. To make an impression towards each other and to be appreciated. Just like where it all started; people’s thoughts during primitive communism were simple. To be a good hunter and a good comrade was appreciated.
That moment I had to go back to the nature because I had so many questions. Why did the human race survive? What is the purpose of humans of this planet? Why did we got hands to be able to make weapons? Are there other species who have the same abilities to protect themselves against the influences of the nature to survive, but most of all against the human beings. Why do we kill the last living proves of certain species? Because we want to wear them on our skin? Because we want to use their body parts to make drugs? So we can create a ‘happy moment’ in a crazy world that we created ourselves? Why can we not live in harmony with the nature? And if we can’t, maybe we are not meant to be on this planet…
I had so many questions but I didn’t know the answer. During that same walk I became angry and disappointed. What is my reason to be on this planet? Why did I buy those Nike’s? Why, at the age of 28, I came to this realization? Why didn’t this caught my attention when I had history class at high school? Did I even learn about it at high school? If the moment and blessing would be there, do I want to ‘put’ another human being on this planet??
I was walking at this beautiful beach and I realized that being in this 24 month program, Pedagogy & Fighting with the poor, is exactly where I want to be at this point of my life. Since it happened to be that I am a part of this universe, I feel the strong need to be a positive contribution in this period.
Because with this program we learn about the needs that we need at this moment in the world. On a small scale, by living in a community. We learn how to live together, to communicate, to work together, to reflect and to find solutions. We learn to respect, we learn to contribute and we have fun.
We learn and teach to recycle, we learn and teach to grow our own food. To fix a wall, how to feed the chicken and how to make a bonfire. We learn about our world, about the ruling forces, about hunger and poverty. We learn about climate change, about history and the future.
I learn from people who didn’t have the save childhood that I had. I learn from people who have other fears than me. I learn to be conscious about the choices that I make. About the food that I’m eating, about the time that I have, about my way of communicating.
I know that the two years that are in front of me are not going to be easy. I know my life in this community is going to be intense and there will be a lot of tough moments. There needs to be put in a lot of effort to make a community sustainable. There is a lot of work, a lot of organizing and a lot of emotions. I know that the studies are going to be difficult. Because I know that what I will be learning will be confronting and it will hurt. It hurts because I care about our planet.
I feel that we have to take responsibilities of our life on our planet. We cannot close our eyes for what happened in the past. We have to face it in and be conscious about our choices in our everyday life. Being in this program I hope to learn how to be a positive contribution as much as possible and I hope to find a way to live in harmony with the nature and each other as much as possible. And I hope that more people will find their way to do so….
On the 11th of April I was walking on the beach, with the sun on my skin, the wind in my hair and my feet on the ground. Overwhelmed by the (background) of my existence as a human being in this universe. At that same moment I came across this tree and nature gave me a sign that sometimes I need to get lost to find a piece of myself.
By Sytske from Netherlands